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so my last fast lasted two days and then the weekend blew it. So i started another one today and its going great so far. I tell my mom im eating at work and work that i ate at home so no food for me hehe. I have a party on Sat where my ex will be and i cant wait to see the results of my fast and show him what he could have been with!!! i wanna loook hott and skinny and be the attraction of every guy there. Doubt that will happen but i swear i will be down in weight and look good. Wish me luck!!!

Love to all my ladies!!!

XOXOX

day one of my fasting down and it feels great! idk why but i love the feeling of an empty stomach! anyway my friend just got on my case bout how much weight i lost in the last few days and i told her flat out im not gonna stop dieting and exercising. She just kept saying how i dont need to lose weight and how i look fine. Well great for her she thinks i look fine. Doesnt help when i think i look like a huge fat a**. I look at myself in the mirror everytime i pass it and i just grip all the fat on me and want to cry. I can never get enough off. It just sucks so much. I think ill always see myself as fat but i mean its part of my problem and at this point i dont want to stop or get treatment....
Anyway to all my ladies that may look at this thanks for reading and caring!!!

XOXO

New to live journal...

hw:150
lw:120
cw:133
gw:115

hopefully i can make myself less than my GW.. ill do it in intervals...

XOXO